February 2009
19 posts
sing for the laughter, sing for the tears. Never...
I guess you could say i have learned a lot about myself over the past few days. I mean i have seen inspiration to write come from everywhere, and this proves it as it is my third blog today. I don’t think i am going to post it today. I think i am just going to put my laptop to “sleep” and give some more words a think over. It is what i tend to do lately. I keep a journal by my...
this is what i think of when i walk.
As i was walking my dog down the street i was thinking of my laurier additional application and what i am going to say. What do i say for what event has given me great personal growth, what. I kept thinking and thinking. I thought back to last year, and Ms. Ryu’s comment. She said “Lauren needs to work harder in this course”. I had a 90, and she was telling me i needed to work...
January 2009
50 posts
A Millie - Lil Wayne
The song that got me through...
Gun shots, hit the ground running.
Now that i have slept and re-juvinated myself, i am ready to actually write a real blog about yesterday. So the title of this blog is very true. Usually in competition meets we use a “beeper.” Meaning, when you hear the BEEP you go. However, their electronic system wasn’t working, so we used a gun start. Meaning, they shoot a gun. When you hear it, you go. I felt as if i was at a...
This is what i am meant for.
When i was in grade four, i told my parents i wanted to quit everything and focus on swimming. They gave me their “whatever” look and helped out by enrolling me on a swim team. I never knew it would get me this far. Swimming has taught me so much. From self disaplin, to team work, and team unity, it has taught me a lot.
Today we had a swimming competition. Once again, i was the only...
Dawn of the dead.
On the night before a swimming competition i can never sleep. Doesn’t matter if it is just a silly two club swim, or a multi-club swim that your whole season depends on. Weather everyone you know is going to be there, or just a bunch of random swimmers sitting in the stands waiting for their event to be called.
It doesn’t matter. I can’t sleep. Same goes with tonight. Tomorrows...
“well i feel like a prisoner trapped inside this broken world.”
– 88-sum41
watch your words spread hope like fire.
Waiting is the hardest thing to do. Waiting for that one e-mail to come, so that you get the blurbie saying “one new message in inbox” or waiting for that letter to come in the mail so you can tear it open with all your might. Waiting for that one person to come along, and tell you the one thing you have always been dying to hear from them. Or that one text message that can change your...
you can catch me..
do you need to talk.
call lauren at……
actually i believe you already have my phone number.
but seriously budd. i am ALWAYS here. :D
prolixmay:
thanks for doing this this to us, to me.
fuck you.
i really hope you get an epiphany soon because you’ll lose us soon. you’ll lose me soon.
and i woudn’t even care because i’ve stopped caring.
for you and i.
fuck you.
everybody is changing. And i don't mind.
Can someone change overnight. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that someone can. But think is the key word in that sentence. I want to believe they can. But change happens over a period of time. Change happens with factors helping it along. It just doesn’t seem like the factors are there. To make the change needed to get better. I really do want them to change. And i have...
only once.
A once in a lifetime opportunity comes well, only once. It sucks even more, when you cannot take it due to other commitments. I work on fridays from 4:30 to 6:00. It is an easy shift, but i sometimes wish i could get rid of it.
Anyways, my old swim coach / lifeguard for swim team / head coach for the team I coach, asked me to be an assistant coach for him, for his Gold ||| team. Basically, i...
It’s Tricky - Run DMC
“Create a new tumblelog”
– side of tumblr screen.
All i know is that i feel lost without you.
I am going to start doing things for me. Not for you, not for her, not for him, for me. I might sound selfish, but it is something that needs to happen. All my life i have been doing things for my parents, and friends. I need to do it for me. What benefits me. What helps me get the farthest in life, and have that sense of full-ness. I need that. I desire it.
In life i guess you could say i have...
When days are cold, in my swimming pool.
Mss. Thats what we be. Swimming quicker than fishes in seas. We swim frontcrawl, back best and fly. We swim all day, and you’ll see why. GOO MEADOWVALE.
Yes. i did just make that up. And it is one of my BETTER swimming cheers. And, my laptop tells me meadowvale is spelt wrong. Ptsh. Silly laptop. Right now everyone, and when i say everyone i mean the whole entire world, is at the movies...
yes, I have an obsession
is it your own book. If so, then can read it after you?
if not, then where can i find it:D
prolixmay:
I’m reading atonement and all I can think about is the morbid ending. note to self: never watch movies before reading the books.
Quiet as the cold, and ever presence.
Being terrified can be very different for many people. For some, it can be something as simple as darkness, or complex as death. It comes in all shapes and sizes. I am afraid of exposing my true self. Some know me, meaning my close friends. But then it seems like some just dont get it. I never thought i was that complex. I am terrified that people will tell others what i tell them. I mean it...
1000 times a day - early november.
i dont know if...
I bet she's beautiful. That girl he talks about.
Writing something close to the heart is hard. You have to watch that you don’t give away too much. You have to make sure that you give enough away so that you get a good mark. My topic is not bad. It made me stronger, and taught me some important lessons. Thing is, is that even though it is close to my heart, it is not touching it. There are so many things i could talk about. And it is hard...
Girl of the year - FM static.
Told sarah i would...
Lack of motivation is killer.
It is true. As of late i have had no motivation to write. I have for everything else, just writing doesnt seem to be comming to be as naturally as it used to. I believe it is because i tend to censor myself. I always have. And most likely always will. But it isnt healthy. I need to write. it is that, in which helps me move, eat, and most importantly sleep (for without it, i think way way way to...
i need you like fish need water.
the point wasnt for them to feel bad though.
Lol. i was just pissed.. i think i took it a BIT to far though.. Lol
itwasawonderfulsplash:
i really like this blog, because you can tell you really get into it and you can tell you mean every word of it, hardcore. and no matter who it’s about, i’m sure if they’re on tumblr, they read it. and maybe they dont know you feel this way..so maybe you...
i need you like fish need water.
so is this how it is.
Is this how you treat your good friends. Tell them that they are one of the few people that you want to remember and then all the sudden don’t talk to them. Or try to keep in touch. Is this how you always treat them?
I mean yes, it may seem like i am not always there, but i am. Always. I am there during the day, but also at midnight when you cant sleep. You must know...
Everything is changing and i dont feel the same.I
So i was watching tv down in the basement and i was watching a show on TLC waiting for 90210 to start. This commercial came on, with that family that has like 17 kids. Well apparently their oldest child is getting married, and him and his wife-to-be HAVE NOT YET KISSED. Now i know that this is very traditional, and i am not making fun of them, it is just that it is not often that you hear of this....
I know who I want to take me home.
omg jess. I absolutly love that song!! ( i have three different versions on my iPod). Lol.
and if you ever need to talk my friend. Lauren is here.
Giant Mac
They are amazing arn’t they?
itwasawonderfulsplash:
i love giant macs.
i’d do fine with one. macbook is good, dont get my wrong, but i’m on a giant mac and it’s freaking beautiful:)
sarah loves apple.
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
Everyone is doing it. So i am going to as well.
-I want to see the world through the eyes of someone who has never seen it before.
-I want to record a podcast every week. And actually put them on the internet.
-I want to have more free time. Time where i can hang with friends. Where i can actually have time to myself.
-I want my parents to spend a day in my life. Then try and critisize me.
...
“There’s music in the wind and sky. Can you hear it? And there’s...”
– August Rush
You just have to listen.
All you have to do is follow the music. And whatever you are looking for will find you. Music is everywhere, and i know for me, it is always around. You just have to listen. and you will hear it. you just have to believe. have faith. And it will find you.
I am not talking about just iPod stuff, but windchimes, birds, the stars, grass, everything comes together to create a sound. Everything comes...
Poo covered Rhombus Octagon Monster
it is okay sarah courte:)
and i want you to not be down on yourself for what other people think. You need to do things as you please. Not something that will please others.
itwasawonderfulsplash:
after party > prom.
why go to prom? why not just go to the after party? say what? cause i’m not allowed. pFFFF you guys. p-f-f. i was just watching youtube videos, and you know how people say 50...
i almost had you, i guess i should have noticed.
i currently have this song in my head. It is like pounding with all this shit, yet i can still manage to also have a song that is getting annoying in my head XD.
I dont even know where to start. Seriously. Or finish. Or just all around say what i have to say. I guess you can say i have hit a bit of a “slump”. And i mean i am not like depressed or feel like i am in a dark hole.. i...
Almost-Bowling for Soup.
And I almost had you But...
when the going gets rough...
Last night, i sat down, and got all ready to write a blog, and i just couldn’t. I knew what i wanted to talk about, but i didn’t know how, and i just had no motivation. It seemed like words didn’t come together, and there was no writing. it was more like jotting down random shit.
I wanted to talk about strength. But there was just a lot on my mind. I don’t know where it...
1000 times a day - The Early November
Even if you cannot hear my voice, i will be right...
So, I was going to do the whole 50 things I wanted to do in my life. Well, I am going to narrow it down a bit considering the time, and how much hmwk I have. So here we go… Going from Top to finish of course.
10. Get a tattoo. The one I have always wanted. Either three stars behind my ear, or a quote from the bible on my foot. 9. Travel the world. See all the places I have always talked...
Lets just say "WOO" was part of our national...
Thats right folks, Canada won its FIFTH gold medal in a row. AND on home ice as well. It was a game of fights, embellishment (swedish goalie) and of hard hitting. Canada burst out of the gates taking an early lead and never looked back. The final score didn’t matter. All that mattered is that the canadian flag was waving higher than the other flags, and that our national anthem was the one...
Tear Drops on my Guitar - Taylor Swift
i have a dream.
So. first things first. I am following the guitarist from New Found Glory. And as it may seem stolkerish, it really isn’t, because i dont even have them on my iPod. I just like the pictures he adds, and even some of the songs he adds of different bands.
it is kinda cool, because as i know that probabally many are following him, it is cool that i can still feel this like personal relation to...
Standing on the rooftop, waiting for the bomb...
http://www.straightedge.com/whatissxe.html
“I’m a person just like you But I’ve got better things to do Than sit around and fuck my head Hang out with the living dead Snort white shit up my nose Pass out at the shows I don’t even think about speed That’s something I just don’t need
I’ve got the straight edge”
i am not associated with the whole...
Mama Mia - Abba
Listen to the music, the song i'm singing.
Yes. That is a reference to my all-time favourite musical ever Mama Mia. I saw the play when i was younger. It was my first live play, and it captured me in a way that i can’t describe. The music, the acting, the dancing, and i saw it all from the third row. I went on to see it three more times, and then see many other musicals.
Anyways..I just finished watching the movie.. and it was one...
You oughta know.
Lol.
my old one went on a one round trip to the good old trash can.
lmfao
itwasawonderfulsplash:
chromatic! silver with the black wheel. but i feel bad for my other one. it’s just sitting here with no songs on it. i ditched it, and i feel really bad. but it wasn’t working for me! so. idk :(
dreamersbewarned:
woah.new iPod… nice!
wait what kind? like chromatic, classic.. what kind?
...
You oughta know.
woah.new iPod… nice!
wait what kind? like chromatic, classic.. what kind?
itwasawonderfulsplash:
i got the new iPod and it took probably 3-4 hours to get all that fucking album artwork..and figuring out what album each song is from! thank goodness for some common knowledge. im sorry about the ipod talk, but i went to the apple store today and they said it was fixed..but it wasnt fixed. i...
Handlebars-Flobots
the story of my life..
SO. once again, my life today was spent doing homework, and the pool. It was my first time there since a december 20th, and it was nice to see some people again. It was like any other toting shift. Sitting, reading my book, joking with a few customers as they walked past, and making sure everyone paid to get in. AS USUAL.
i am just going to mention that i am sorry now. but this is a story that i...
uh...
Lmfao. This made me laugh really hard. “we are about to get laid …well some of us”.
when i say hard.. i mean like pee my pants wake my parents laugh,
prolixmay:
It’s 2009.
We’re about to graduate (well some of us).
We’re about to turn 18.
We’re about to get laid (well some of us).
We’re about to experiece something new.
Wow, it’s 2009.
she's not exactly sure what she'll do.
So i came across a list of my favourite quotes and things to live by. Here are the top twelve quotes that i want to live by for the year 2009.
1. It is more important to know where you are going then to get there fast.
2. Fate know’s where you are going. It is up to you to drive there.
3. Smooth seas do not make skillfull sailors
4. When you’re young, the silliest notions seem the...